They loved it when you told them they were still pretty.
At least they pretended to love it. maybe it was a show from them to you .to thank you for your show. time makes that blur a bit.
Jesus ,it was awful. at first ,no one had any idea what it was. a club thing. a drug thing. but, pretty quickly it became a Gay thing. and by the time it was that, it was fucking ferocious. it ate my generation almost in half.
Seems odd, to call it MY generation. but it was. and is, mine. ours. and, I know the numbers aren't half, but it was half the people we knew. and, I'm straight. I just happen to be blessed with the ability to be friends with all kinds of people.
Although, at the time, I didn't feel lucky. none of us had any idea how to help. what to do, what to say.so, we just were the best friends we could be . and none of us had our shit together back then. we were fucking kids. so, we visited, and talked to the circle that gathered around. I remember, taking a ton of blankets to everyone I could get to. Because they were always so cold, there were never enough blankets. And pills. we used all our club connections to get pain killers. because the pain was fucking horrible, and I never once saw a doctor give a scrip for pain. not fucking once. I remember having to help my friends move out of hospitals because they were no longer getting treatment or even a bed to die in. because everyone was so afraid.
We kept waiting for help.
It never fucking came. and, everyone who could die, did die.
And, Ronnie and Nancy the poster couple of the GOP never even said the words hiv or aids. because no one in that party cared about any faggot disease. fuck them, that's what they get. It's Gods vengeance. and, all those sweet men, just died.
I buried half my club family while those pricks swilled wine ,got rich ,and shit on us.
And, it has only gotten worse. The Trump party fucking hates people. LGBT, women, people of color. anyone not male and white, it seems. and, the haters in this country eat it up. people want to spin it, want to tell us they have made strides, but really, this world is spiraling and unless you're rich or just stupid enough, and hateful enough to let them do what they want, you are less than human to them.
I remember a president who refused to even say the word gay, let alone help. because,fuck them, that's why. And whenever some one I know, tries to convince me it's about fiscal responsibility or the constitution, it takes me less than three seconds to think everything you have just read. And I am back there. sobbing every fucking day, because my country killed my family. and, I fucking hate you, and it won't go away. I don't have to play nice. you killed my family.fuck you. and ,shame on you.
Anyway, they loved it when you told them they were still pretty.
